hi I'm Uzi and you are listening to Catholic versus Atheist I usually like to ask my guests to introduce themselves just talk a little bit about yourself who you are what you believe in why I have been born in the Fiji Islands and I come from the family of n slaves which were brought from India to Fiji and I have a mixture of other blood in me my ancestors from my father's side had been Afghani and I come from a Muslim family I was born from this woman who had 13 children basically raped every day of her life by a husband and beaten brutally when I experienced life and started to understand it I didn't see anything else but horror older the focus that we got was to ask forgiveness from this God that was put into our head so as I was growing up and the violence that I lived in and all the agony that I have been through as a kid it has been very challenging in my life from a very young age and I have been in a lot of trouble in my life and I'm I'm gonna be 59 years old this year but I have been on therapy for 30 years in my life and I'm gonna do that forever to come now and I will never quit that and I only tell my story to people who have a degree and who are able to understand psychology 30 years of psychologists that I have seen has opened my heart and spirit and I have four children one kid that I have adopted at a very young age he was three I have three blood kids of mine and I have adapted to other kids and I have a fourth degree black belt in Taekwondo and all my children are all in martial arts and they all got black belts I have been explosive in my life I have a very high energy level I don't drink alcohol at all I am striving to change the education of my generation and put them in the right place and I have spent all my life doing camping and all kinds of stuff when I was addicted mojo for ten years I had a huge business over there also and at a very young age but I was very angry driven obviously and I had lots of challenges still on my table but you know a few years ago when I quit drinking and I said to myself I'm gonna I need to go and see another psychologist and after seeing this lady I have decided that I will never stop seeing psychologists in my life because from time to time I need to refresh stuff in my heart in my mind because after a little while more questions arise in my mind and I'd like to resolve them with a professional you know because of the brutality and because of the scare about God when I became ice guillotine I had totally become reckless and very angry of what was happening to my mother and everything around us by this man who was a total Dominator and a brutal she was very bad man and so you know I became very revolting and since I was so rewarded they thought that I was possessed by the devil which was actually very advantageous to me you know so you know when I got to become seventeen you know I was a very angry man and I was I'm the youngest member of our family and my brothers were just pushing it because they have been beacon in their life if brutally also you know but I had experienced this violence ever since birth and all I wanted to do was kill my father when I grow up you know so you know when I was 17 we were living in this little village in and one day when I came back from school I was in grade 11 and and I was training I was doing already in martial arts and I was doing actually boxing and weightlifting and I was a 17 years old and my and then my old man came over and he went inside the house and gets the plate my mother was sitting and eating so that she could serve Him as soon as she he comes home but she was a little bit late to he kicked her plate and started beating her so I was downstairs with my prayers doing weightlifting and I was pumped out so I came inside went upstairs so my old man when it looked at me goes what do you want so I don't want to touch her anymore he goes to me what are you gonna do about it I go I don't worry attaching here anymore or else I'll have to beat you so you know he was in his early 50s so he was pretty good at that time so you know I said come on outside so we went outside and we lived in a village so people were very used to all kinds of commotion which was happening in our life edge on a consistent basis so what happened was there was a there was people around a whole bunch of people were already around and my old man came outside you know I didn't let him touch me I was really very good already so you know I've got to put seconds I just dropped him on his knees and he was on the ground already but my brothers they just kicked the out of me you know all my three brothers just jumped on me and beat me up so bad but I was just like I like they said I had the devil in he so you know the devil you know that that infusion of anger related the energy that I had harnessed inside of me came out and I was able to get out of the of that Rumble and I went and grabbed some gas and I started throwing gas I was going to light the house in fire right but then you know just in a couple you know a few minutes the cops wave grabbing me and they were putting handcuffs on me and you know they were escorting me out of the property and I was not allowed to come back over there anymore so I was just 17 years old and you know I have worked all my life and I have been a very intelligent kid even when I was small and I always covered my ass because or else I'll be back this is basically so you know because of the life I had lived and the kind I had to be always thinking I couldn't basically never ever stop thinking or else I'd be in trouble you know so what happened was what I did was I was saving money I had the ticket in 1976 or something like the effort and I was saving money and I had like 300 bucks so I I went in our Levant and lifted my sister's hosts who was the oldest member of our family for a few days and then what I did was I got myself a passport roughly and I was able to go to Australia so look um I went to Australia and got myself into a lot of trouble over there I stayed in Australia for two years just over two years and then I was escorted by police to the Fiji Islands again my problem was anger related I love to fight I would without with a pic of a second I will be in a rumble with people it didn't bother me and you know my anger was not harnessed I didn't have very many tools at that point in time my testosterone was at a very high level I was very highly energetic and in another trouble all the time and I always promised myself if I ever touch a girl physically and I will cut my hands off right and I never never touched a woman physically never only way I touch women is with love right and I have taught this to my children also or else I'll kill them if I ever hear one of my kids ever beat his wife or his movement I will kill the and if any violence if I ever experience violence in front of me I get involved in it if there is a woman involved in it I will get in there immediately so I don't take this thing that has happened in my life lightly at all I have studied almost seven religion and know Islam like the back of my hand and I know of Hinduism and enough Christianity and I know Rastafari and I know of Buddhism and I also my last religion that I actually implicated myself in was heresy they're all stupid as because they were all one in different places they all work some kind of stupid hat they are wearing some of them are molesting their own children because they are so prehistoric still and evolution of life has obviously not hit this yet like a bigger part of this world have not been able to involve because there have been all forced into religion thousands of years ago and all of them have been brain was in the same way so they have been following something I find that human beings because when they are not evolved it could be a disaster because they do not know how to think that's why there have been harnessed back change and religion so the superiors who have been evolved before they actually have been able to get all these monkeys who've been coming out of the bush on a consistent basis and raping them and their children and making them their sleeves and making them work and giving them a little bit of wheat and flour and you know choosing the most beautiful ones and keeping them close to them and so on and so forth you know and if evolution of men has been happening for millions of years so there has been smarter people if you go down and ten thousand or five thousand years ago and there are fossils which has been built there have been built by pretty smart man so these madmen already had it figured out like which I have got it figured out now this smart men have already got it figured out they have been having slaves and using others beautifully and those have been bringing their daughters the children to get raped and bringing them their money also because why if you do not do this you will go to hell and there is a god I have already met him he's gonna come and violate everything that you is that you need violated to make you understand that if you don't love me I will send it to help so basically the philosophy in life grew people who have been evolved like for example if I make a machinery to be in a thousand years that machinery will be so profound that it will start doing by itself so these religions in two thousand years let's say Christianity is two thousand years that have made it better and better how to make people to before now you know what they do please passes before they got people so brain washable but and they're all fall down you see the power CD and all kinds of pocket places and yet I have experience when I was growing in my village one of my uncle's he was a witch doctor and I was beside this uncle of mine watching these stupid you know when I was a kid like this I was talking to my elders they already thought the go where do you get all this stuff from because my brain was already evolved than like 99% of the people who lived in the village run I saw right through the his doctor and the people who were brainwashed with that also you know a mind is a funny thing baby if you do not control it and if we do not discipline it you know discipline doesn't happen by just talking to you discipline happens by practice you gotta practice like you practice religion you gotta practice discipline if you wanna take all your children beautifully dressed on a Sunday afternoon to the favorite priest is not the way to discipline or to create a legacy for your family it just lately dis is starting to come out before you are not ought to think like this or else will be killed we understand there if you start thinking like this 20 years ago 30 years ago you'll be killed will be taken to the jail and you will be locked out for the that I am saying right now if I was not a country or behind you realize that that's why these important scholars have been hiding they have to hide and give the lead to this stupid where the procollagen have got a beard and all that other cioppino thing so these more intelligent people have been threatened by their lives and many have been killed many many thousands millions like Nostradamus and grass protein all the people they have been existing in this one they have been called witch doctors and that be killed do you know anything about Aleister Crowley do you like him or no no I don't know okay he was a Satanist did you ever get into Satanism as a worldview no I'm like I said I know I do not need to know that that is another stupidity that humans have created because I lived it at first and when I told you about my witch doctor mingled into Satanism and this Satanism is a aja state of mine like I said to you earlier that if you do not harness your mind and if we do not discipline little do funny things on you and you could be believing in rock to become your stupid God which a lot of people do this stupid crosses and people are praying to that piece of wood every day of their lives you know the world can go and believe in any they wish to we are changing one family at a time and that is my end I don't have to tell you the stupid world what my goal is to make the best and the strongest family who could get more evolved and educated in the generations to come and become this world's leaders that's what my goal is is there any book you've read the aligns with your worldview that sort of matches what you believe is your book they would sort of give an idea of where you're coming from or not I'm not sure if there is one and then I haven't been very much looking for one either and I do not read books would you be interested in writing a book yes I would be I will be definitely writing a book and I'm looking for a writer to write my story what are some of the basic principles that guide the decisions you make day to day in moment to moment I do not require God or Satan's track to be a good man and have an understanding in righteousness I do not in that stupidity to tell me what is right or what is wrong I know what is right and what is wrong I enforced the righteousness I do not steal I do not lie I do not cheat I do not around with people I do not let get people to around with me and I do not take life lightly it is important for us some people to enforce the right kind of law in this world and I cannot do it though that to this stupid world I have to be a living example and the right truth for my family so that they could understand me easier than I did have you ever thought about the origins of life if there is no God then how did life come about so you know that we humans can make another heme and all these cats and dogs and we humans have made them oh yeah right we did we've been evolving these dogs from wolves and working in all kinds of dingos and now we have got domesticated dogs of whichever quality we wish but we're just mixing and matching stuff that's already there you see it's like when you make a cake you take the flour in the eggs but you didn't make the eggs and you didn't make the flour you understand yes it's called science if you mix two different chemicals you're going to have something else that's what we have done so you know do you know about this cosmic world there are many many words like us now a human brain doesn't have the ability to think that far no we don't so when we don't have the ability to think that part why the should we live our lives in question you understand where I come from what the should we live all our lives in a question of who has created us why we are created and all that other whereas you could be sir you could be centered in the source of life which is what do human strife or we strive to have a good enemy we want to be honest we want to be truthful we want to have better friendly then we would come from and continue like this so there are other light sources that could have created that and there could be God there could be the devil but am i looking for these no I'm not and I'm not a chance I am and for the people who wish to continue to look for them for all their lives hallelujah to you I don't I have got my problems answered my question has been answered I'm not looking for all this I've been a kid who has been molested raped and seen only Moroso that was enough for me I do not need all that what I need is to find Pete to find peace you have to find yourself and to find yourself you have to know who you are what do you want and where you are going and once you have found these elements in your life you start setting goals you set small goals and you achieve them and you get stronger you set bigger and better goals and you keep achieving them this is called the human evolution then when you have arrived to the ability to your maximum then you will kick the bucket and die and you know what happens to it when it died you are born and life continues man do you understand so don't worry what what happens when you die you will be you are just dust it'll become nothing will be nothing right and there's no such thing as soul so don't worry about that part once your heart starts beating you're dead you understand so there is no such thing which comes out of your body with a smoke going in the doors no sucks pain these are all imaginary things that religion has put into people's minds and people follow it like morons fortunately I have been able to get out of it and my family has also so I've made a huge jump in my part of them is life you know they do any of your family believe in any religion no I have brainwashed them not to believe in religion so what is the basis of morality like what if someone said to you look Susie I can find a way to have more pleasure to have a better family more money more reputation a better reputation by cheating stealing and lying and making a fake life and I'm profiting at the expense of people around me people around me are suffering but I'm getting away with it because I hide it but I'm having more pleasure I'm getting more of life than you are at their bigger house a bigger car a bigger boat a more beautiful life etc because I'd lie cheat and steal so what do you say to that I think that's hallelujah do you because anything you do is you're going to get caught and get in the end because you would live the life of a rat and you're going to be hiding in a hole your heart is not open you're not powerful is the signs of a weak man you are a that's what I'm telling right other you ask me question what I don't tell you I say you left leave the light for you got no evidence to show your children and the generations are going to come there will be a bunch of arts and this is what you want to live however you're my brother but you will you're not part of my plan get the out of my life so you believe in justice it seems like you think justice is always achieved that people don't get away with anything really absolutely justice will be achieved and even if it is not achieved that rep will die a rats life why the should I try to change and if you comes in my way I'll crush that of course that he tries to intervene in my life or coming to anywhere around my family he's not the chosen one he should keep away from men like me what do you say about the voice of conscience that's inside of your heart and your mind that tells you this is good this is not good do this don't do that what do you think about that because for me that's the voice of God but doesn't tell you that so that chemical inside your brain it might have an imbalance let me tell you about something so that imbalance might be creating too much successful so that testosterone the extra imbalance of testosterone in making your big hard all the time and all your thinking is something or somebody so that man's imbalance in his brain he cannot control it he's a pedophile or a rapist or a rapist artist and he's only looking for this pleasure in his life the power of brain functions brain has got many chemicals inside of it do you believe in a supernatural or not I want you to ask me and simplify that question for meetings do you think that everything is matter and energy or is there some order above the order of nature that is called the supernatural where we have spirits and God and all that there are energy the are kinds of energy yes there is I can feel the energy and it is not that important to me that I'm going to die trying to find out what the pocket is but is that energy natural or do you think it's supernatural it's a nice relent so my point is that where where does freedom come from how do you explain freedom because you're free to make it one choice or another right a human's ultimate goal in a human is to find peace so there is a formula to find peace which I have resolved in my life because your brain is different than mine it is not the same formula you will require to do this right every brain is different from each other so for me I have found peace and I found peace and I worked words be coming out oh I have to come today to find peace you have to find yourself you know where you are going and what route you're going to take to get there and and set goals once you start achieving small goals let me get stronger you've explained that but what I'm asking is isn't everything determined by your past experience and by the circumstances that surround you everything is in place to force you to make the decisions that you make and there's no choice nothing has forced me no I had made that choice yourself where does that free do you have any philosophical explanation for where that freedom might come from yes because I have believed in myself and I followed these footsteps to get here okay they've got it no no no that doesn't answer the question are you Jewish I'm your spiritual - yet your juice I'm a spiritual Jew but i'm catholic your Jew and I can smell you through the camera is that a good thing or a bad thing no isn't a bad thing or a good thing I have told you all my views sir and I respect you of who you are you can believe in whichever God you choose - and I am worried that this religion has been forced to you and your generations and some of them have died because of the stupid religion that you are following stop the head and start a new life believe in yourself and believe in your family and you will find peace in your heart there is no God this is my answer to you my brother so I hope that you evolve in time and are able to find peace inside your heart and start to trust yourself and believe in yourself if you want to find the answer and if you want to knock on my door you are welcome to and I will show you the light at the end of my interviews I usually just ask my guest to wrap up by giving a little closing thought so what believe in yourself and if you don't believe in yourself you have lost half the battle already you got to start setting small goals and restructure your strength and if you lose your levels you're going to get weaker and if you keep changing part you will never arrive to your goal even if you lose a bevel you should never give up on the wall you got to come back tomorrow and fight it again and stop believing in imaginary because you will never find peace in that yeah ok will do if you think you got some questions let me know girl all you got to do is all you have to do